Oh how I dread this time of year......everything starts to happen just like it did right before Wendy died....end of football season, Surivor Finale and Holiday shopping --- you go through life on automatic pilot, oblivious to the outside world and then --- BAM --- something tragic happens that takes your breath away and makes your whole world stop.
I remember those 5 days leading up to her death like it was yesterday......I replay it over and over - trying to remember every detail of our conversations, her laughter, her stories and her voice. I miss her voice.
Time doesn't really change that - years don't really make it easier ---- you just learn to live with the pain and you learn to cherish the memories :) It will be 4 years this Saturday......4 Christmases without her.
Life goes on. We keep living and going through our life wondering how much time we have left on this earth. The one blessing that is left when someone close dies, is you lose the fear of dying yourself --- becuase somewhere deep inside you know that they will be there when you pass, waiting to take you in their arms and it welcome you.
I will see my sister again - until then I will remember her smile, her wicked sense of humor and they way she made me feel loved!!
Merry Christmas my Angel-Sista!
I love this message. I feel that deep message too saying I'll see her again. I focus on that feeling whenever I'm feeling lost.
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