Bittersweet time

It is 3 days until Wendy's son Brandon get's married.........I have vivid memories of Wendy and I talking about the day our children would get married.  What would it be like?  Who would they marry?  When would they have children?  One thing I know for sure - is we always knew the day would come and we always knew we would be there for each other.  It has been 6 years since Wendy passed away and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of her.  She had the most wonderful sense of humor and was quick to laugh.  Her eyes twinkled and she usually had some sarcastic, funny comeback for everything!  Oh how I miss her......I think of what it would be like if Wendy were alive.....we would be talking about what we were wearing to the wedding, those 10 pounds we wish we would have dropped, who would be coming, where would it be......so many conversations over the phone that would last for hours.......She would be so proud of her son and I know she would have loved Adrienne.  I know she is gone and I know she won't be at the wedding, but that doesn't change the ache I have in my heart ---- the longing to hear her voice ---- to be with her on this special day.  I am so happy for Brandon and so proud of the young man he has become.  My heart is filled with joy and love for this big day and I am trying so hard to just be happy and take it all in.  Standing in for Brandon's "parents" is a big deal and Ray and I are so honored that he chose us.  I will represent my sister with pride and stand a little taller on Saturday knowing that I am standing there on her behalf.

I love you Sister.  I miss you.  I am honored to be in your children's lives and be able to carry on your memories with them.......