Bittersweet time

It is 3 days until Wendy's son Brandon get's married.........I have vivid memories of Wendy and I talking about the day our children would get married.  What would it be like?  Who would they marry?  When would they have children?  One thing I know for sure - is we always knew the day would come and we always knew we would be there for each other.  It has been 6 years since Wendy passed away and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't think of her.  She had the most wonderful sense of humor and was quick to laugh.  Her eyes twinkled and she usually had some sarcastic, funny comeback for everything!  Oh how I miss her......I think of what it would be like if Wendy were alive.....we would be talking about what we were wearing to the wedding, those 10 pounds we wish we would have dropped, who would be coming, where would it be......so many conversations over the phone that would last for hours.......She would be so proud of her son and I know she would have loved Adrienne.  I know she is gone and I know she won't be at the wedding, but that doesn't change the ache I have in my heart ---- the longing to hear her voice ---- to be with her on this special day.  I am so happy for Brandon and so proud of the young man he has become.  My heart is filled with joy and love for this big day and I am trying so hard to just be happy and take it all in.  Standing in for Brandon's "parents" is a big deal and Ray and I are so honored that he chose us.  I will represent my sister with pride and stand a little taller on Saturday knowing that I am standing there on her behalf.

I love you Sister.  I miss you.  I am honored to be in your children's lives and be able to carry on your memories with them.......

As we continue to get ready for Brandon's wedding, I know my sister is guiding us and helping us through the process.  Wendy would be so proud of her children and how they have grown into amazing young adults.  Brandon is getting ready for the next chapter in his life; marriage.   I know he misses his mom very much and we all wish she were here to enjoy this journey.  In her absence, Ray and I will do our best to stand in as his parents.  We are so proud of Brandon and the choices he has made over the years.  I know how difficult it has been not having his mom around.  I often find myself thinking about what it would be like if my sister were here today......she would be so excited planning the details of the wedding, figuring out what dress to wear, helping w/travel arrangements....she loved having her family around her and this would have been such a wonderful time for her.

Love you Wendy.  Miss you every day.  Continue to watch over us and guide us....I know you are always close by, I feel your presence and love surrounding me.  Wish you were here......